Waiting for your Boaz-A Message that Every Single Woman needs to read
By: Tiffany Langford
I remember the feeling that haunted my heart, the gut wrenching pain I felt from dealing with things no child, let alone adult, should ever have to deal with. I didn’t understand things like why my dad wasn’t around, or why I didn’t have a good relationship with my mom.
I didn’t understand why I dealt with things like depression and anxiety, or why I never could seem to feel good enough for anyone, not even myself. As a young girl I felt like I carried the weight of the world on my shoulders.
All I wanted was to love and be loved.
I remember the day that God’s love took me by surprise. God and I worked some things out in that moment. I didn’t even make it to my bed, my knees just hit the ground as soon as I walked in the door and I bawled like a baby in fetal position as I felt God himself wrap His arms around me. I felt His love so strong.
The jaded, numb state of my heart broke that day. I must have cried out my very last tear. I cried until I could not cry anymore. I cried out years of desperation and depression. I was searching for love, not realizing that He was the ONLY one who could fill that place inside of me.
I ran away from his love just as Gomer ran away from Hosea. Gomer longed for another lover, just as we so often long for the things of this world instead of our sweet Savior.
God told Hosea, the young prophet, to take a wife of harlotry and they bore three children. As time went one, she became unfulfilled by his love, and ran away from him. But despite the circumstances, God speaks to Hosea to go buy Gomer back from her paramour, and this is exactly what he does.
It was hard for me to understand why God called Hosea to marry an unfaithful woman, but the story of Hosea depicts the Redeeming Love of God to us, even though we are unfaithful to Him. God allowed Hosea to bear the grieving pain that He himself bore for His children. (On a side note, Redeeming Love by Francine Rivers is a MUST read.)
How many times have we gone after other lovers forsaking the love of our Heavenly Father?
We are flawed human beings created by a flawless God. God himself is love; he bore our sin, our pain, our suffering, our depression, our mental illness, our addiction, and anything else that would come against us in this life. He tore the veil that separated us from the throne room of God.
I can’t thank God enough for the day his love burned away every broken part of me, eradicating every desperate, lonely, disheartened part of me. His love made me new and for that I will never be the same. He gave me new life and showed me I was more than worthy and precious in his eyes.
As a daughter of God, He revealed His love to me in my brokenness. He took away my sorrow and replaced it with joy. He set my feet upon a rock and gave me new life. He showed me how much He loved me and how He would provide everything that I needed as His daughter.
Matthew 7:11 (NIV) tells us, “If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him!”
Being a daughter of faith does not mean we will not face trials, temptations, heartbreak, or suffering, but it does mean His hand of protection is on us, and He will supply our every need, just as it says in Philippians 4:19. Yahweh, our provider, promises provision over every area of our lives. A few examples are our finances, (Deut. 28:12) that our children will be blessed, (Isaiah 44:3) healing of physicalities, (Psalm 103:2) victory over anything on earth that may enslave us, (Galatians 5:1), and yes ladies and gentlemen, even companionship. (Genesis 2:18, Psalm 37:4, Psalm 68:6)
So often we hear people say, “God will provide you a new job,” or “God will heal your body.” But how often do we hear someone say that God will provide for us a suitable partner?
If God said it, He will do it. We have become so warped by our culture’s ideology on marriage, love, and sex and have turned away from God’s idea of marriage. There are a million voices screaming the opposite of what God is trying to say. Still yet, that still small voice tells us, “Don’t you know I have got you?”
At a young age I began praying for my future husband. I prayed for God to save my heart for him, and his heart for me. I wanted the MAN that God had for me. I was a teenager praying this prayer, but that does not mean I didn’t have an understanding of love. I had fallen so deeply in love with God that I grasped the fact that He was taking care of me and WANTED to provide everything I needed, ESPECIALLY who I would marry someday.
Now I am not against dating. I believe when done in accordance with God’s way, it can be an enjoyable experience and a way to find what qualities you want in the person you marry. But for me personally, I knew my own heart; when I fall, I fall hard.
I made a personal decision to spend as many years as it took just falling in love and getting to know God, that was the desire of my heart. While everyone else was dating and meeting people, I basically put my heart on lock down.
By no means was I perfect, absolutely not. I tried my own way a few times, but God protected me. The season of singleness is such a beautiful time in one’s life that so many men and women wish away. Every day that you wish away, remember that you will never get back. And those days turn into weeks, which turns into years. My biggest regret looking back was wasting so much time in fear that God would not keep his promises to me.
If I had known then what I know now, I would have been walking on cloud nine embracing my romantic encounter with God and God alone every single moment. So consider this is your future self telling your present self,
GOD HAS GOT YOU.
He is going to provide everything you need. God is a lover and He fashioned you and me to be lovers just like Him. He looks down on you with butterflies in His stomach and says you, my darling, are altogether beautiful in every way. There is no flaw in you.
Your season of singleness is only for a time and a purpose, don’t wish it away. Learn to embrace the One who loves you more than a thousand lovers ever could. He is mad about you, and wants to dance with you in this crazy walk called life. Trust now, and see that He is faithful to His word. He did it for me, He will do it for you.
Now I am married to the love of my life, Kevin. We will have been together five years and I promise you it just gets better with each day. When God brings the right person into your life you are supposed to continue to grow as a couple and individually. But before that day comes, you are a princess in preparation. Marriage is a rewarding challenge and we must learn to walk alone with God first, so take a seat beside the most Lovely One there is and just enjoy the ride.
We were created by the author of love. God Is Love, and we were created in his image. So know this, God is taking care of you. Something that I had to realize for myself and I hope you will too is this; no one in this world is going to fill that giant hole in your heart.
That hole is God’s place. When He molded you, He placed that void there so that YOU would choose him. Coming to God is a decision we must make on our own. A relationship is meaningless if both partners are not equally in love with each other. If you could force someone to stay with you against their own will, what would be the point? If they do not choose to love and cherish you, that isn’t a relationship at all.
God is a gentlemen, the best I may add, and He wants you to love Him for who He is, just as we want to be loved for who we are. That’s why the choice is left up to us.
If you have a void in your heart that needs filled and know that you need Jesus, I encourage you to ask him into your heart right now, don’t waste another minute. He can make you whole. That peace you’ve been searching for is in His arms, you can rest in Him.
I am always here if you need prayer. If you want to accept Christ as your Savior, you can do it right there in your house, just like I did. I promise you that you will not regret falling in love with God, you will be eternally changed.
You are worthy, chosen, beautiful, loved, and precious in God’s sight. I love you beautiful people, be encouraged today.