When Rejection Turns Into Redirection-A Purpose for your Pain

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I don’t understand why things happen the way they do. I don’t understand why friends and family leave, or why disappoints become such a normal part of life.

But I will trust in you.

I know that you have a purpose for my pain and a reason for my struggle. I know that you are molding me, cleansing me, and pulling out all of the dirty stuff in me. It hurts, but I know that you are making me better.

I tend to be some wrapped up in my own self, my own problems. I make mistakes, I am flawed, I mess up. I want to be more like you, Papa. Help me love and see through your eyes, that burden would not become a permanent part of my heart.

I want to be free. Full of love, full of joy, full of freedom. I want to trust you with all that I have in me. But I am only human. I have my days where the tears don’t stop flowing and it seems that no one in this world understands.

I am thankful that you have always been my Father. From the time I was a small child, I knew you loved me through and through.

You complete every part of me, you are what is good in me.

You take me onto the mountaintop, you take me to heights I never knew I could reach. You have brought me to see things I never thought I would see.

I know that you love me. You are infatuated with me. You want to take my heavy heart and replace it with a free heart full of your peace.

Help me to be more like you. In a world where nothing feels real, help me to trust in you.

You make my crooked paths straight. You cause me to stand upright. You discipline me in your love.

There is no error to your ways, and for that I am thankful that I belong to you.

You see the ugliest, most dirty parts of me and you still call me lovely. You called me your diamond, even when I don’t feel special.

Your beauty burns bright, burning away every ugly thing in me.

Help me to be more like you. Help me to love the way you love. Help me to see the things you see, and do the things you do.

I know that the heartbreak I face is not your rejection. Instead, you are directing me onto the path that I am supposed to be on. You are directing me toward my purpose, and sometimes that means burning away everything that shouldn’t be there.

You are my knight, my kinsman redeemer, my first love.

Thank you for calling me and loving me, even when I feel unworthy.

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6 thoughts on “When Rejection Turns Into Redirection-A Purpose for your Pain

  1. What a beautiful and meaningful prayer. IThrough this prayer I can see changes iin me. Proof of the work He has already done and will continue to redirect me to the right path. One filled with lots of really good things! It’s so exciting to be loved so much!

  2. Beautiful, Beautiful, Beautiful!!! It hurts when we we don’t understand why things are being taken away. I like how you think about it being a way of changing your direction…I need to start practicing that myself!!!

  3. Tears flowed as I prayed this prayer. It expresses so much of what has been buried so deep down in my heart and it has enabled me to express what before only came out in cries and groans. I love that it does not deny the pain but leans into it and invites God to make sense of the pain. Thank you for vulnerability and for allowing others to ‘see your heart’. In doing so you give the rest of us permission to do the same.. Jo

  4. This is so lovely. My favourite line is where you said ‘your beauty burns bright, burning away every ugly thing in me.’ Because I’m learning that all beautiful things come from God and striving for beauty on our own is frivolous.

  5. Amen !! My favorite Line : ” You discipline me in your love.” He exactly did that today. I feel so blessed to have a God that really desires to see me grow 🙂

    Thank you
    Grâce

  6. I couldn’t stop tears off my face when reading this… the Love of God has sustained me even today… my heart is heavy and bleeding I have just of something that I really didn’t believe it can happen to me… though now I am willing to learn from God!

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