I don't remember the exact day I gave my heart to God, crazy right?
However, I do remember, like many other relationships, being drawn to him, this man named Jesus.
I remember as he wooed me, my heart fell further and further, and before I knew it, I was in love.
I remember one day in particular, I was having a really bad day. But this man kept speaking sweet nothings to me, letting me know everything was okay and that I could rest in His love, That's when I TRULY gave in.
As soon as I opened the door to my bedroom, I melted into the floor. I found myself in complete fetal position crying out for a love that is much bigger than you and I, and for the first time in my life I knew I was enough, just the way I was.
Love swept over me, it was unlike anything I've ever felt or dreamed of.
It was a hope that would stay with me for years to come, through highs and lows, through the ups and downs. I realized this love was here to stay.
I had become so conditioned to people leaving. I had become so used to being told I wasn't good enough so needless to say, something this raw, unfiltered, and captivating too me by surprise.
12 years later I find myself falling more in love with Jesus. My love for Him continues to progress, and I couldn't live a day without my Savior. He has loved me conditionally even when I walked away, even when I cursed his name, and even when I gave up.
He loved me through all of that. He loved me in my messiness, and for that I am forever grateful. I now truly understand what it means that there was only one set of footprints in the sand.
As I look back in my life I see how He carried me. I see how He loved me even when I couldn't love myself. When everyone else deemed me as unworthy, He treasured me.
Friends, it's a love I can't describe, and I so deeply want you to experience this love and joy I feel in my heart. I hope that you come to know God.
I pray you come to know His love, grace, kindness, and mercy. It's a love that will carry you through the rest of your life. I can't even explain it, I can't put together the words to convey how beautiful a relationship with Jesus can be.
All I hope is that you experience the fullness of it too.
"I want to know Christ and the power of His resurrection and the fellowship of His sufferings, being confirmed to Him in His death."