Years I spent questioning myself and my worth. Years spent picking up the pieces of my heart. Years spent trying to understand why you did the things you did.
It has taken me 23 years to love myself, and you were part of the problem. Little did I know you were hurting too. Little did I know you were suffering from a lot of the same things as me.
It doesn’t excuse your behavior, but it’s finally beginning to make sense to me.
Hurting people always hurt other people. When you are broken, it doesn’t feel too good when you meet someone who doesn’t seem to have that issue. But honestly, inside were all a broken mess. We’re all in need of a love that is way beyond ourselves,
23 years later I am married to the love of my life. He loves me much more than I deserve, and truly is my God-sent. A year ago I almost lost my baby girl. I almost lost my own life as well. But by the grace of God we are both here today.
My daughter is beautiful, healthy, and vibrant, and I’m healthy and alive too. I’m in a good place, honestly the best I’ve ever been. I’m the happiest I’ve ever been in my entire life, and I just want to say this to you;
I wish nothing less than the same for you.
I pray for your healing, and I pray for your well-being. I pray you find yourself wrapped in the arms of God and begin to love yourself. I pray you find happiness and peace.
I pray you find love.
After 23 years of healing and learning to love myself, I’ve found my peace again. I
But more than anything, I pray for your healing as well.
The funny thing about life is every single person you come in contact with plays a role in your destiny, so thank you for the role you played in my life. If it wasn’t for your unbelief in me, I’m not sure I ever would have learned to believe in myself.
If it wasn’t for the criticism you dished out to me, I never would’ve learned to become comfortable in my own skin. I never would have gotten to this point in my life. I never would have found my peace if it wasn’t for the part you played in my story. I wouldn’t be where I am if it wasn’t for you.
With that being said, I forgive you. But most of all, I forgive myself for tolerating disrespect. I no longer carry that burden with me. I wish you nothing but the best.
Thank you for the part you played in my story, and there is no offense here in my heart for you. I pray you find love, peace, and happiness. I pray you find yourself.
So on my journey of self-love, I wish you nothing short of the best, and I truly mean that with all my heart.
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