The Note That Changed My Life
By: Tiffany Langford
Anyone who knows me knows my adamant love for all things Seaside. There is just something about the salt water, fresh air, hot sand, and cool waves that satisfies my soul. To say I am a beach lover is an understatement.
Our annual beach vacation just happened to occur right after a discouraging series of events in our lives.
A couple of years ago my husband and I went through an uphill, seemingly never ending battle in our lives. Our callings and faith were being tested. We were two young people trying to figure everything out, then out of nowhere life hit us like a wrecking ball. (Isn't that the way it always happens?)
All at once life brought us to our knees.
My heart was so burdened and heavy. Our faith was being put to the test and shaken to its very core. From the outside looking in, we looked fine. But we truly can't understand what a person is going through unless you have bore that burden yourself.
I was discouraged and angry. To make matters worse, it felt as if God was a million miles away.
I didn't understand why in the world God was allowing us to go through all of this, and all at once.
I kept telling myself this would all be part of my testimony, but I was too caught up in my anger of being hurt by the very ones I thought loved me to take hold of that belief.
God speaks to us in so many different ways, if only we would open our spiritual ears to hear what the Spirit is saying.
Back to my story...
On our last day of vacation I was walking the beach with my Mama.
We were dressed from head to toe, makeup on and hair done, but decided to jump in the ocean. That's one of the best memories I have with my Mom. We were both laughing so hard and for a while we were able to totally forget about our problems.
Walking back to the campground, there was a little piece of paper tucked away in the gate along the walkway.
I'm not sure how it even caught my attention or why I even cared enough to go out of my way in soaking wet clothes to see what it was, but it sparked my curiosity.
Here is what it said,
"Why are you downcast, O my soul?
Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God,
for I will yet praise Him, my Savior and my God."
(The actual note that I found)
This note would encourage me through hardships to come in my life from that moment. Three years later this tiny piece of paper remains in my wallet. I pull it out when I am discouraged and remember that God was speaking to me through this.
This was my love letter from Jesus. His reminder to me that we were sticking through it together, and that He would never leave me, no matter what storm in my life that I faced.
It is amazing the things He will teach us. Sometimes all it takes is for us to stop and listen.
I'm in a place in my life where I am just sitting at the feet of Jesus. I am praying, learning, and doing my best to listen to His voice. I'm not even close to perfect. I feel unworthy so often, but God's love prevails through me.
Today I pray that God's love ministers to you. Open up your heart and let the Holy Spirit speak healing into the depths of you that have remained untouched for years.
The things no one else knows about, God does. God has a way of taking that which was meant for your harm and turning it around to use for your advantage. God has done it so many times for me, He will do it for you too.
I thank God that He is my deliverer, my healer, and my lover. Often I try to do things my way, but my spirit is only at peace on the days I choose to set aside myself and lean on Him. He is everything lovely, perfect, and beautiful. There is nothing wrong with sitting at the Master's feet letting Him love on you, teach you, and heal you for a while.
He wants to minister to the depths of the Spirit, and He wants to heal the most broken pieces of you.
What is God speaking to you today?
God bless you beautiful people!